Shop More Submit  Join Login
About Deviant Member Aka No Kagura26/Female/United States Group :iconshinsengumidojo: ShinsengumiDojo
Icon done by: Miyukiko
Recent Activity
Deviant for 7 Years
Needs Premium Membership
Statistics 1,193 Deviations 13,182 Comments 33,774 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

Random Favourites

Activity


Me and my fiance by Okitakehyate
Me and my fiance
A picture of my fiance and I at Wendy's on his birthday. My shirt has Sebastian from Black Butler, his has hallow Ichigo from Bleach.
Loading...
The best way to be happy with someone, is to learn to be happy alone...

That way the company will be a matter of choice, not necessity.

Or so I have been told...

Such lies can only grace the lips of those who've never truly been "alone".

For all I've ever known of happiness in being alone has proved vain,

empty...

meaningless and fake...

an endless stream of days in which I could not tell one from another...

existing without ever truly feeling alive.

Life in a dream world at best..

waiting to awake...

Food is without taste...

song without meaning...

art and life in faded colors...

tasks without reason nor purpose...

when I am alone... all joy is folly when no one exists to share it with.

I've come to the conclusion that if this saying has any truth it is for the opposite reason.

Food tastes better when you are starving...

and drink better when one thirsts...

pleasure is that much sweeter when you have known pain, anguish and suffering...

true enjoyment comes from want and need and overwhelming desire...

like one craves to breathe at the moment of drowning.

I enjoy another, not because I have learned how to enjoy being alone...

but because I have known how much pain loneliness can bring.
Of happiness in being alone
I grew up in a retirement community in Florida, all around me were old people dying and young people coming to visit who never really stayed. I once had a group of friends who'd meet every Saturday for pizza-parties, but they parted ways when they grew up and moved on. I lived as a single woman with no friends who didn't get out much for a good long while. I didn't have money or a job so I spent my days and nights watching anime, playing videogames, drawing, writing, taking personality quizzes, meditating, and "trying to find myself" while pretending that I was happy and everything was okay. I dated only 3 guys in that time I was alone... one at a time, at least a year apart each. I dumped the 1st guy when he said he didn't believe in marriage, the 2nd guy silently dumped me after one date and left me hanging for a year, and then returned and introduced me to the 3rd who I found to be the love of my life and my one true soul-mate. Since meeting him, I have known joy in being one with him beyond what most could experience by taking ecstasy... even though I have never found any true happiness in being alone.
Loading...
Hey everyone. Sorry I've been kind of dead :dead: on here for a while. I started studying Graphic Arts at Independence University Online. Haven't gotten to the actual art yet, started out with "Psychology of Motivation" & now working on "Writing" :work: and "American History" :reading: Woo hoo what fun.. Actually it is kinda fun sometimes, when I'm not struggling to figure out what to write :frustrated: or feeling kind of bored with all the reading :yawn:. I'm getting good grades, but the thought of starting math scares me :fear: cuz I suck at math... but hopefully the tutors they have online will be a big help ^^; Maybe I'll post something on here sometime when I get the chance, can't promise though. 

PS

I got my wisdom teeth out recently, I've been watching the anime "Blue Exorcist" a lot lately, and my birthday is coming up next Friday on July 11th!
  • Mood: Pride
  • Listening to: the ceiling fan
  • Reading: American History
  • Watching: Blue Exorcist
  • Playing: Lunar Dragon Song
  • Eating: a banana
  • Drinking: water

deviantID

Okitakehyate
Aka No Kagura
United States
Current Residence: Who wants to know?
Favourite genre of music: Alternative, Rock, Tecno, J-pop, & anime soundtracks.
Favourite style of art: I like pencil drawing, computer-paint, & photos
Wallpaper of choice: anime
Skin of choice: Pale
Favourite cartoon character: Okita Souji, Ukitake Jyuushiro, Hyatt, Hayate Gekkou, & Ukyo Tachibana
Personal Quote: "Childhood is not from birth to a certain age and at a certain age
The child is grown, and puts away childish things.
Childhood is the kingdom where nobody dies."
Interests

AdCast - Ads from the Community

×

Comments


Add a Comment:
 
:iconsmogcake:
Smogcake Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy b day!
Reply
:iconyukim4ru:
yukim4ru Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Student General Artist
Happy birthday <3
Reply
:iconzane1193:
zane1193 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014
Hey! Just stopped by to see how you're doing,hope you and your family are well.
Reply
:iconokitakehyate:
Okitakehyate Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2014
We're well, I recently signed up for online collage classes in graphic arts by the way.
Reply
:iconzane1193:
zane1193 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2014
I'm glad to hear that!

I'm in the process of writing my personal history journals and you are one of the few Liberals I'd trust with my secret,maybe,if I ever get the courage we'll meet.

Hope you and your family are doing well,have a great weekend.
Reply
:iconokitakehyate:
Okitakehyate Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2014
I'm flattered to know that
Reply
(1 Reply)
:iconda-risembool-rangers:
DA-Risembool-Rangers Featured By Owner May 8, 2014
Hello!! Welcome to the Rangers! :iconthe-da-ranger-group: High-five! Hug We're happy ta have ya in the club!! ^___^ Yui Hirasawa (Castanets Dance) [V1]
Reply
:iconyukim4ru:
yukim4ru Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013  Student General Artist
How are you doing? :D
Reply
:iconokitakehyate:
Okitakehyate Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013
Not too good, lately I've been feeling like :iconukitakeplz: & :iconsoujiplz: not TB though, just bronchitis... still a pretty bad :cough: though I caught it from my fiance.. he's feeling better now, but I'm still :sick:
Reply
:iconyukim4ru:
yukim4ru Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013  Student General Artist
Awww I hope you feel better soon!
P.S. I miss you!
Reply
Add a Comment: