Hayate's Sleepless Night

Hayate never did fair well when Genma and Yugao were both away..

For nearly a week, Hayate had not slept more then a few good hours out of random days.

Again he found himself laying awake.

He would toss and turn feudally, and occasionally let out a small, weak, pathetic choke of a cough.

Realizing yet again sleep was not to come Hayate surrender to sleeplessness and begin to cry.

The tears came out in streams running down the darkened crevasses of his eyes.

He choked and sobbed then grabbed a tissue from the box on his nightstand. He held it to his eyes in attempt to stop the tears from flowing out. Sniffling, sobbing and choking on coughs he continued to cry.

When he was done crying into the tissue, he blew his nose then tossed it in the waste basket he kept near his bed.

After he's blown his nose a few more times and tossed away some more tissues, he gritted his teeth and squeezed his eyes shut tighter; then turned over in disgust.

"I'm so pathetic I can't even cry myself to sleep.." he choked. Still sobbing, coughing and shuddering a bit, he pulled up the pale blue blankets and wrapped them tighter around his aching torso.

Thoughts ran through his mind as he continued to lie awake, thoughts he lacked the strength to speak aloud:

"I'm so tired.. so very tired.. even my lungs are tired.. So tired.. They are aching for rest..

So tired.. I am aching for rest.. It's been so long.. how long's it been since.. I've slept through the night?

Each time I lay awake for hours and then.. just when I feel I can rest.. there's daylight..

and noises.. so many sounds.. it seems the whole worlds conspiring to keep me awake. Why?!

am I NOT meant to sleep? If so then why? Seems all I can do is wait..

wait for exhaustion to take over..So I can pass out.

..I want to collapse..

I pray it take me now..

exhaustion..

please..

take me now..

please.. I beg you take me now..

be my seme..

make me your uke..

I want the darkness to swallow me up..

I want to fade into nothingness..

I want my consciousness to disappear..

take my strength.. take all of it!

do not leave a drop..

I want only to sleep..

to rest..

not even to dream..

..I am so tired.. so very tired..

take me into nothingness..

I want to rest..."

Hayate never did fair well, when Genma & Yugao were both away.. Leaving no one, to hold him, to rub his back, or to comfort and console him..